Sometimes, it’s not OK.

4. what you wear to bed.
A shirt and shorts. Sometimes flannel pajama bottoms if it’s cold.

(Challenge here)

3. how have you changed in the past 2 years.
Two years ago I was this idealistic, fresh-out-of-college, omg-i’m-excited-to-be-part-of-the-so-called-“real-world” kind of person. Yes, I had just graduated, I started job-hunting right away and after about a month, I got a job as an Associate Producer for the second season of the Philippine franchise of Project Runway. I was so stoked because I’ve always wanted to be in production. 

I learned so much, I loved my colleagues (including my boss), I learned how to write better (I guess?) and I met so many new people (celebrities and high-profile names at that). I was happy to, somehow, be on the road to living my directorial dreams. However, when ever I’d try to picture my future in a profession like this, I realize that it might not be something that will give my future family the comfortable life I am currently living. The hours are deadly, the pay is low, the projects only come once in a while—it’s frankly a very unstable profession. This is not to say that all the people in the field are not comfortable with their own lives, no, but they’ve started way earlier, at a time when Philippine film and television was more sophisticated and was deemed as art. I was at a cross road when the show’s season ended. I needed to find a new job but had to choose if I want to go the same route and do what I want, or go on a different path with steady income, 13th month bonuses or medical benefits. With an industry like this and an economy like ours, I decided to go for the latter.

I called myself a sell-out when I made the decision, but now I call it being realistic and practical. Yes, that’s what it was. It was a very painful decision to put my dreams on hold and embrace a different field (I eventually went into PR) so that my future’s dreams can come true. I look at it as a grown-up decision, which, thankfully, I don’t regret doing (yet). My plans, my mindset, my way of looking at the world have all changed since two years ago. I admit that I am a little jaded now (lol) but my priorities have taken a different turn. I am content at my current job where I am getting compensated well and the stress levels are just about the right amount.  I am looking into further studies in business marketing (something that NEVER crossed my mind before—EVER) to up my game and establish myself more. 

I wouldn’t say that my now realistic-practical-sometimes-jaded self has forgone The Dream. It is still there and I am still dead set on chasing it. Maybe in a better place and in a better time.

Yeah, maturity. Sometimes, it sucks eggs.

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